Halfway and Then Some

Context for this poem: a number of my favorite college friends are graduating this year (2019). This poem is for them. Though it can also be read as a graceful sort of tantrum.

Silhouette of a person standing on a mountain under a starry night sky

I tend to take things as givens

If it’s whole and unbreakable at one point then

Of course, it will always be

Especially when I carry bonds that stretch across years and lifetimes

A connection forged out of misadventure and memory and more than what words can name

A click between entities

A tie that can’t be broken

When they would tell me the sun shines brightest just before it sets I never could believe them

Because you – me – we – all of us together made the most brilliant star in my own patch sky

We

Were everything

We

Could forge paths through deserts

We

Would forge handprints in constellations

I never wanted any of us to end, but

How can anyone expect to carve monuments in nothing more than sand

To split from the path you’ve tread for years is like separating one limb from another

When you took your own paths you took parts of me with you

When I turn around I can see your footprints tracing mine halfway and then some and then none

And now it’s just my own feet leaving marks on the dunes

Tiny little flecks

On an earth so big

Under a sky that never seems to end, and –

Oh, it’s hard to say goodbye when there are so many paths we haven’t walked, when we have so many stories left to tell

So tell me,

My friend,

When will I see you again?